PMS

Okay, now that the ‘thinking’ post I’ve been working on all week is out of the way, I can write about the past few days. I’m on my period. I get PMSed when on my period – and contrary to popular culture, PMS for me is peri-menstrual syndrome. Not pre, not post, but both and everything in between.

Most months I get a little emotional, a little horny and a little chocolate addictey. This week, I’ve gone to extremes on two of them. I’ve made two batch of chocolate brownies and ate more than half of each, and I’m HORNY. Like – super duper huper I can’t keep my hands off myself horny.

On Thursday night, I asked for permission to use Elise and cum. Master said go ahead and use Elise and cum 3 times. So I did, in a very uncharacteristic way too. Instead of celebrating the permission with hiding myself away in a corner and doing it privately, I did it on my bed with my webcam on and connected to Master’s computer. I even took my time and teased myself plenty before I orgasmed, in full view of the webcam. *blush* Normally I’m shy and reserved and it takes several orders from Master before I’ll do anything sexual on webcam, but that night... that night I was too horny to care.

Last night I was horny again. Actually – I was horny for most of yesterday. I did some shopping and baked some brownies and read some blogs and was a good girl until Master came online. Then I asked if I could cum and he said to go ahead. And went ahead I did! I sat there talking to Master as if all was normal in the world, and gave myself 7 orgasms in about 40 minutes – all the while still talking to Master about other things.

That satiated me – until bedtime. At bedtime my body was still pretty horny, but I have had enough of it. I felt like I’d need to cum again later in the night, just not now. But I would need permission if I was to cum later – so I told Master about my horniness, and he replied by saying he won’t grant me any permission unless I asked properly.

I thought about it and kinda fantasised about some simple orders like ‘tease yourself for 30 minutes and then cum’ or even a ‘you may tease yourself tonight but don’t cum, you may cum in the morning’ like he had give me in the past.. I didn’t want to ask for a simple ‘may I cum’ because right at that moment I didn’t want to cum, but I was still horny. Instead, I asked Master for instructions to last the night. Master had a better idea and told me to tease myself there and then.

Tease myself! Tease my super horny body! I was so wrong in thinking Master would give me some simple orders and go off to sleep! So I teased myself... and teased myself some more.... and teased some more and on masters orders I teased myself with Elise.... and turned Elise up.... and teased.... and teased.... and turned Elise up again.... and teased some more.... with no permission to cum! I was mentally cursing and screaming myself for getting myself into this. My clit was hurting and my pussy was clenching – which made my clit push out against the vibrator more, which made me want to ARGHZ!!!!!!!!!

I had Elise on high against my clit for endless endless minutes – and then I couldn’t stop myself and my hips thrusted against the vibe and I came. I came and I screamed and I cursed myself for getting into this and I came. And then I apologised to Master. I feel embarrassed and ashamed of my slutty horny uncontrollable body. I feel bad for making Master stay up. I feel bad that I couldn’t hold back. I feel sorry for failing Master. I am genuinely ashamed of myself.

Master went to bed unhappy with me. I’m under orders not to cum without permission again, and Master has promised I won’t be cuming for some time. *sobs* Master has also promised a punishment. A proper punishment. A punishment I’m not really looking forward to because its a punishment for failing Master. This punishment won’t be ‘play’. This will be a punishment for failing my Master.

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PostScript : Its the next morning and I'm still super horny - I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm planning on staying away from reading d/s blogs and concentrating on school work for the rest of the day.